Letting Go

Kristin posted this today about her work as a drug and alchohal counsellor.  I was so inspired by it and wanted to share :

Letting Go

I sit and listen to your woes
A life story you’ve never told
I can hear the anger and feel your pain
The anger in your heart  That holds you back

The door is now open  Just a crack
It’s ok to cry It’s ok to let it go
The words on your lips Just let them flow
I sit and watch as the tears stream down your cheeks
It takes all I have not to wipe away the streaks
It breaks my heart
To see the hurt and To feel your pain
But I hope someday You might be whole again
If I may If I might
Just help you darling With your fight
Your fight to live  and Your fight to try
Your fight to create a better life
I must admit to you now
As I am sure you already know
It won’t be easy its rather hard
But this my dear is quite a start
I must tell the truth and I must never lie
I must sit and listen and watch you cry
I am grateful for the trust You have placed in me
I am grateful to the scared little girl
You allow me to see
I sit and listen to your woes
A life story you’ve never told
I can hear the anger and feel your pain
The anger in your heart  That holds you back
The door is now open  Just a crack
It’s ok to cry It’s ok to let it go

December 8, 2014
First draft
Kristin McNulty

Inspired by the night I had at work yesterday. I have been at a loss for words really. I tried to put down in writing how I felt last night after a pretty intense session. This is a first really rough draft… I am grateful to my God for allowing me this opportunity to help attempt a miracle. I know that this is NOT me .. it is all GOD. I could not do this by myself without his help. I pray for the courage, strength and wisdom EVERY day to make better choices in the hopes that I just might be able to help another as they struggle to change their life. Life is sooooooooo difficult sometimes and sometimes people just need an ear and a hand and for someone to say you are not alone…… I am truly truly  grateful…. That’s all.

December 3, 2014

This week Richard and I attended a session at the Temple.  I was able to perform work for Karin Arvidsson, an ancester who lived in Sweden in the 1600's.  Such joy to be able to do this work for others and we are working hard to track our family lines so we may continue to seal our family together.  This is the work of Eternity that really matters not the everyday stuff that drags us down. 

My records are in such disarray, I hope to find a way to organize them.  Recently I've discovered several sites that have tons of information for keeping genealogical records.  I've pinned them to pinterest and will add a few here as a reference.

Christmas is in a few weeks.  The tree is up and lot's of decorations but there is so much to do to bring the holiday atmosphere into our home.  My regret is that our family is so spread out and that even those that live close to us we do not see often enough.

Ashley left to return to college.  Zac had a mental breakdown and is in a hospital in Tenn. after travelling across country and 1/2 way back only to be stranded in Ohio after trying to take his own life.  My heart has been broken once again because of the suffering of someone I love so much.  I pray he will heal and that he will survive with the Lord's help.  

Wow, it's been a year since I have written in this journal!! I wonder why.  Where have I been and what have I been doing.

Life is a tangible, living entity that evolves through time creating itself into a creature we hardly know :) and like a runaway train it speeds like lightening into the future while you stand amid the dust trying to see where it went.

Well, today I decided to begin again and get on the next train.  As I travel forward, my reflections will also be glancing to the recent past before the memories are completely faded from view.

Today I was thinking about people, realizing there are so many good people in my life whose relationships I treasure.  Feeling blessed though we are so desperately broke all the time, what I have in my life are people and that is of greater worth.

As I pondered the good and the evil in our world of 2014, I realized what is published and talked about most are the evil deeds and negative events in society.  Yet, I have come to know the other side of life as a Mormon.

"I have always loved being a member of my church.  I am a Mormon.  The people I have met through church have been some of the dearest sweetest people I've known in my life.  What impresses me the most is their desire to serve each other and their love and devotion to Jesus Christ.  There are many who strive everyday to follow the commandments of God, to give of themselves, to bear one another's burdens, to uplift and love those in need.  I know this is true of other church communities besides my own and am grateful to live in country where the followers of Jesus Christ are re-markedly following Him.  In the end what will matter the most is not what riches we have obtained for ourselves in this life, but what we have given of ourselves to the other people in it.  That is "The Road Less Traveled" that will make all the difference!!"

jeri