August 27, 2010
Today as well as the last few days I spent in the dark and dreary wilderness which holds me captive. I can't find words enough to describe the pain. And no one else really wants to hear it. But I wish I could scream and all the sorrow trapped inside my heart would spew out of my mouth and never come back. It is a difficult situation which is even more painful living with my husband who forgets important things. Yesterday he was suppose to wait for Ben who would be late but decided to go out back and clean his bird cage. When Melissa tried to drop Benj off, she didn't know he was here. Short story is she was upset and I felt the blood drain out of my body only to be replaced with an ugly anger. Thus followed the hours of tiredness combined with tears and wanting my life to end. It is amazing how problems like this can throw me into a cauldron of hot coals. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day.
